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whewww. what a week; sorry for my lack in update's; just absolutely HATE not being able to sit down at my OWN computer and write in here. ya get my drift? 

past week much has changed in my life. where i come home to, who i call my true friends, what i do everyday has just all turned the opposite way. i can't say i absolutly despise the change because i know im living more 'healthy' but i guess you could say but it is different. something i have to get use to because i can't live my life that way. i just cant.

back to being an east cobb snob, love it;;

i must say; i love living here though. just so homey. if you would consider that a word? hah; my mom is so welcoming and she has such a postive spritual vibe; i could never not call this house a home..it's the only thing thats stuck through it all these years.

went and saw an old good friend. taylor. it was one of the moments you can try and describe but it was undescribable. yess, that amazing. sitting there just catching up was so good considering how close we use to be. she wasn't just my schoolmate, bestfriend she was a sister, a soulmate <3 glad to have her back in my life

my 6 month old pup, looks so innocent. hah utterly adorable i must say.

easter was calm; good day just to relax. rainy but spent just lying around as mom cooked us something warm and fresh. wrote a few poems and came to a few conclusions. im such a bum..*

tara reid..she's such the classic party girl,
can't get enough of her. she's simply stunning

'the best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds and that's what you've given me. that's what i'd hoped to give you forever." the notebook

ahh. i want to be in love. MR RIGHT WHERE ARE YOU? hah

busy month ahead..

GOALS FOR APRIL:
-membership to tanning bed
-manicure & pedicure
-work hard on schoolwork
-make diet plan to keep weight off
-get pup groomed & manicured
-move rest of stuff over here
-finsh up setting my room up
-GET HAIR HIGHLIGHTED!!

lots to do. so much comes along with moving.  im stressed already!! haha but little excited

well i'm off to get ready for the day. i'll update when i have my computer back and trust me what a great update you will all have. haha

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hope everyone had a lovely easter. thank you for comments and such. i'm getting back to them all today. thanks for sticking a long.

steph ©

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so i lied! haha ended up going out this weekend; haha i knew i couldn't keep my word. i mean dont get me wrong im a down-to-earth girl.i love to spend time alone at home but staying by myself of friday & saturday nights. not really my thing haha well anyway catch you up with my weekend. i  © my boys.

friday; chilled till about 2, then bryan, beau & mark made it up here. of course twacked out of there minds; so mark me and bryan smoked the whole night as beau spent 4 fucking hours on the car. like no joke; he didnt come in once. haha it was so hilarous; you had no idea. greatnight guys<3
saturday; around 6:30 AM left to take bryan home so he could get to work. then we went to beaus for the day and he spent anothe 2 hours on that car but got it fixed! haha in the meantime mark and i smoked it up in beau's room. haha too much fun. we chilled there for most the day then about 6 we up to the mall to get beau another tounge ring; write about that in my other xanga. then went to this hot ass motherfuckers, nice ass apparement. met up with these 2 guys (dont remember there names haha opps) whatched some movie and hung out there. then about 11 made it out to dopeys were ofcourse we hung out with a million people and ofcourse we smoked it up. at one point there were 11 guys and me; haha ah kinda weird? haha we left about 4 and chilled at my house.
sunday; spent all the rest of the night and today chilling in complete slience. me drawing, mark fucking around, beau at the computer. haha it was a bit aqward. anyway they left about 2 and i passed out. hadnt slept since sunday, just a lil bit tired! haha now they are on there way back up here..yayay
yet another chill weekend. i effing hate this.

so i must say that was my first weekend without sara. it felt weird not getting all GlAM for the night, it was weird not hearing her phone ring off the hook for partys, it felt weird not going out and being crazy ass girls. but everything happens for a reason. just weird and kinda depressing to think about. ive lost so many friends its unbelievable.

beau way back in the day..haha he was like 16.
hahah too hot loving it to the max babe--

life is short, believe it or not. and how scary to think that it could be over any second..so why waste time thinking negative about your self and the world, be appericative and take what you have for granted--to an extent. people are out there wishing for a life like mine so why not live it up the right way. why sit around and be bummed about little things. never sweat the small stuff> just not worth the time of day.

fORbiDdEN PARAdiSE

something i wrote;
being yourself means putting yourself out there. having the cofidence to state your needs & standards. hopes & desires. emotions that are hard to face and anything on your mind. showing your opinion even though it maybe the oppisite of what others feel/like/see. showing you have the intellegence, inner beatuy, and an arising future. only you can be you. as hard as someone can try & be you; they can't. because everyone is there own person. being orginal, whether others accept it or not, you dont mind. even at you're lowest moment's, make yourself something. because that's all that matters in the end. simple as that. --me

BE SEXY. BE TRUE.

BE WilD. BE YOU;

'i'm more attracted to a stronger man rather than a feminine man. someone who would just throw me down and take control. i love feeling helpless. i definitely like a man who is aggressive and confident.' - the lovely carmen electra
feel you there carmen! haha

well it's like 5. beau, mark, dopey & bryan are here; update later. thank you for all you're comments. ill be getting back to them as i soon as im alone. love you.

steph  ©

[update] ahh. ended up not staying in!! haha i knew i couldn't do it! went out all weekend. give details later!! beau & mark are on there way so gotta get ready! thanks for all you're comments;later loves!

live it up--drink it down ©

can't get more REAl with that, can you? miss the DRUNKEN party nights with the girls..haha sorry for the GAP in entrys; just had people over all week, and kinda hard to update with all them. haha other than that not much has really gone on.

i WOUlDN'T RECOMMEND
SEX;DRUGS -&- iNSANiTY
FOR :ANYONE:: BUT--
THEY'VE [AlWAYS]
WORKED FOR >>ME<<

failure by designer jeans ©

recap of my week;
monday; slept and claened up from the weekend. had beau & mark over and we went to KSU then came back here and hung out. they left about 9AM
tuesday; slept till about 4 then blake arrived lol and again mark& beau made it over here. left about 3 to get cigs and we ended up in buckhead. the love for dumbass friends..hah
wednesday; blake came over about 5, we chilled had daniel, sam & kyle over. had a few beers, they left. brandon and another one stopped by till like 12. passed out like 6
thursday; spent most the day sleepin, blake left; went out to eat then had my boys over and had some fun with drugs then they left and i passed out.

life has gotten pretty boring. no frat parties, no CRAZY nights at jasons, no parties, no girls night out, no bragging saturdays at doughboys, no boyfriend..i mean man, its gotten pretty lame, i must say. pretty depressing considering how i use the be the SOCiAL BUTTERFlY OF THE CENTURY.

well said MiSS JENNA © 

people are always going to talk about you
so you might as well give them something
to talk about.--liVE iT UP!!

weekend plans; nothing really. for the first time ever. im staying home. by myself. i honestly don't care, theres no point hanging out with people who don't give a flying fuck about me. why waiste my weeknd being a fake whore? tonight just cleaning up around here, order a pizza and order a movie off of the satalite. tomorrow maybe get myself to the mall, tan a little bit. who knows. update later on that one.

i got a few emails asking>do you have another xanga?<yahh, i do. it's not anything like close to this one; just my TRUE and REAL feelings about things. so its not a fake, its me.

well, keep in touch everyone. hope you have a wonderful weekend

steph ©

SEX  DRUGS  & ROCK-N-ROll  ©

that literally sums up my life. hah how pathetic. so wow. deff owe you an update; hah past few days havent been the best. met some new friends and lost a few. but whatever thats what lifes about. something has to change tho. i cant fucking stand this.



so what ive been up too; well wednesday was my 'catch up' day slept, cleaned ya kno. haha blake came over we chilled and had a crazy night. hah wont go into that.

thursdays; prob one of my more better days. went & picked up sara from school; she skipped. what a badass. lol spent most the day at my house. smoked some, ya kno the regular shit. later had people over. ill attempt to name; blake, sara, eddy, jon, brandon, shane, beau, dopey. tracy & chris stopped by for an hour or so. goofy, brian, lucy, brittany, mark and who the hell knos were also over. haha blake brandon, sara and shane were the only ones who spent the night. other than that everyone was gone by like 4 spent most the night listening to music smoking and listening to shane talk our ears off. hah

friday; we all just took showers and got ready for nothing haha. beau came up later and bradon,blake & shane left. sara & beau left about 12. i took a fuckload of xanax spent most my night at the hospital. hell yah

saturday; woke up to perry, beau, jon, sara and brittany. ayhh kinda weird? but they broke into to see if i was okay. hm anyway sara left me again> i took a shower and passed out.

today; fuck if i know..hah

so life is going alright. i think; excuse me i KN0W the certain drug we have been using lately is most deff effecting just about everything. litterally. yet i dont do shit about it. ive been REAllY upset lately. outofcontrolupset. i think im going to go back to the things were about 2 years ago; [FAKE REAliTY] the smiles, the laughs, the invites, the friends; everything fucking fake. it brought me this far..*

JUST WHEN i TH0UGHT MY liFE
WAS C0MiNG T0GETHER
i [REAliZED] iT WAS JUST
STARTiNG T0 F A l l  A P A R T;

FAKE  iT  OR  DONT  MAKE  iT  © 

well im off to t-mobile. getting a new phone/ plan. yah went over $200. dad wasnt too happy. begin cleaning & such. maybe whatch a movie or see some friends? who knows..i live on the edge, what can i say? im commenting & subscribing back to everyone today. sorry for the delay;;

steph ©